Like I thought would happen, I've been complete rubbish at keeping up on this pregnancy. But that's ok, because I'm here now. I think lately I've been having a nostalgia for the days when we were kids and our parent's idea of a perfect picture was standing us all in a row in front of wall, and taking a simple pic on a disposable camera. It's funny because those are some of my favorite pics to look back on. So I don't know, I guess I've been longing for the days when even the simplest of moments were worthy of a picture and so the picture was taken. Whether the background and/or lighting were perfect or not. It feels like back in the days there just wasn't as much pressure to start off marriage or parenthood with the perfect new house, styled to perfection, and just the perfect nonstop moments that social media, Instagram in particular, can make it seem like most people in their early 20s have achieved. It's just crazy. I mean, I know we all understand that Instagram is just a highlight reel but really, how many people in their early 20s can there really be whose highlight reel consists of perfect homes, clothes, and cars? Are there any broke young adults left in the world, haha?
Anyway, I guess what I'm trying to get at is that I'm not the social media "it girl" that has the charming house in the perfect neighborhood that makes meals that look 10/10 every single time (let's be honest, sometimes by the time I've jumbled up all the ingredients and random left overs I felt like eating that day my food resembles barf, haha). With that in mind, I'm just going to try to do my best to keep it real here on my blog and on social. The reason I'm bringing this up now with these bump pics is because now that I'm 30 weeks along (baby could be born any day now and be safe!) the idea of motherhood has started to feel more real and to be honest I don't want to shuffle my baby around my crappy lit apartment all day long just to get an "instagram worthy" picture. If I want a picture of a moment I'm going to take it. Perfection be danged. Also, if I'm the last mom on a budget that doesn't include a $60 outfit for baby and a $100 outfit for myself, on Earth then I want to record it for posterity haha. I think what spurred this all was just the inundation of young mom's with, seemingly, never-ending funds to buy their newborns wildly expensive outfits and all sorts of expensive gadgets with weird gibberish names. You could say I was a little green with envy, I guess, haha. But really, I also just wanted to be able show the side of motherhood that doesn't come with all that jazz and fluff. Also, if you are one of those Mom's with a never ending pocket-book and you're reading this, please don't get the wrong idea and think that I hate you or that you're a horrible person. I don't, and you're not. I just think you're hecka lucky, haha.
Well, that about concludes my sermon of the day, heehee, so let's get into some pregnancy deets. :)
Cravings: Most cravings have subsided. I just still have a bigger appetite than normal, though. I started a clean eating plan with Mitch (with my calories calculated for pregnancy, don't worry) and it's been going fairly well! I'm excited to see if I'll be able to see any difference from cleaner eating, and my regular workouts, in places like my arms, back, and legs. Because obviously the only difference I'll see in my belly is that it will get bigger haha.
How big is baby?: The baby is now about 2 1/2lbs and the size of a cabbage...I think. I always forget the produce size the baby is at haha.
Total Weight Gain: I think I'm at about 25lbs right now and trying to keep it slow and steady.
Maternity Clothes: Dressing the bump has been haaaaard. I do my best most days, but I just feel guilty spending money on myself now that we're trying to save for the baby so I haven't gotten a ton of new things as far as maternity wear but I don't feel like a total hag, haha, so that's a win! ;)
Sleep?: Sleep has not been great. I've never been able to sleep well, though, so I've been dealing with it pretty decently I think. Except for when I nod off at work that is, haha....
Symptoms: I feel mostly fine aside from some gross symptoms that I'd rather not talk about haha.
Gender: We are still holding out strong! We don't know whether Baby is a boy or girl and we're anxiously waiting to find out on this little sprout's big day!
Belly Button In Or Out: The button is O-fficially OUT. Mitch thinks it's cute as heck, I think it's gross haha.
What I Miss: I really miss sleeping on my back, being able to workout to my max, and just having a flat belly. All those things will come back in time, though, so I'm trying not to focus on them.
What I'm Looking Forward To: Rubbing my baby's cute little belly, and just finding out if we're welcoming a boy or girl!
Bump?: Oh the bump is here and here to stay for the next little bit, haha. Thankfully no stretch marks yet but we will see if that holds up!