Un Petite Fille

The last couple of days I've been trying out this weird little thing called "going-to-bed-EARLY". I always used to be so good at doing that and then this last year I just sort of started staying up a little later and a little later and a little later. I wasn't even doing anything important either. Just wasting time on the internet and watching movies on Netflix. Anyway, last night I actually listened to my body and went straight to bed the moment it felt sleepy. Which was at about eight flippin' thirty. Hashtag "grandma status" anyone? Oh well, it's healthy. Anyway, I went to bed the instant I felt tired and now here I am at 3:30 in the morning fully awake and typing up this post. Well, I guess that fully awake part is debatable. ;) Which you could possibly use as the reason for the deluge of random thoughts you're all about to receive. Ready for all of these random thoughts of mine? Because I honestly don't even know where to start. All I know is I have an abundance of vague thoughts that are just dying to spill out in some form of creative way and I'm not so sure I actually know how to express it all. Does that make any sense or is it just the sleep talking? It's probably just the sleep but humor me and just roll with me here. Let's start with the topic of perception. I was just thinking the other day how odd it is that people can perceive you in a completely different manner than you perceive yourself. Isn't that odd? I mean, when I look in the mirror I just see me. I mean, beyond the brown eyes, freckles, sharp nose, high cheekbones, and big smile I see all of the thoughts, recollections, and experiences that have shaped ME. Now, this next bit might sound like it's completely off topic but it fits into the idea I'm trying to express here so bare with me. You know how every family has that annoying sibling that runs to their mom with the silly and ludicrously simple accusation of, "MOOOOOM, they're looking at me. Tell them to stop looking at me!" In my family, I was that sibling. Granted, I was just the annoying sibling in general. ;) Anyway, what I'm trying to get at here is that I don't like being looked at and I never really have. Sort of funny coming from a girl who chooses to blog about fashion and thereby post pictures of herself for the world to see, right? Call me a Starburst I guess. Ya know cause of that whole "Starburst is a solid yet juicy like a liquid" thing? From the "contradiction" commercial with the Scottish Korean eating Starbursts? Ringin' any bells? No? Moving on then. My mom was telling me yesterday that she couldn't understand people that didn't like being looked at. She thought it was the strangest thing because she didn't have any problem with people looking at her because she figures, "I'm an attractive lady. Keep on lookin". Not just that, but she also said people needed to get over themselves and realize that sometimes the so called "lookers" aren't even looking at them, they're just staring blankly. Am I making any sense with this? Anyway, here's to getting over myself and letting people stare. Who cares. Well, no, I take that back because deep down I cares. I think that it stems from the fact I wish people would see beyond the exterior and see ME. The way that I see me. To see me for me. Like that "Hey Leonardo" song by Walking Buzz. 90s throwback anyone? Anyway, maybe I'm not even making any sense and this whole thing is just stupid. I guess what I'm getting at, though, is that I wish people (and by people I mostly mean the male population) would see me and see the descriptives that I use to describe myself such as, "modest, happy, daughter of God, a lady -in the truest meaning of the word-, and deserving of respect" rather than, "hot". That word just really irks me. I know most women would just tell me to quite whining and take the "compliment" but I just don't see that word as being a compliment. It just feels objectifying and undermining of all of my efforts to be a lady and by textbook standards, "The word lady is a civil term of respect for a woman". So I just want some good old R-E-S-P-E-C-T. Don't get me wrong, though, I'm not against receiving compliments. It's the best thing in the world to receive chivalrous compliments like, "beautiful", "gorgeous" or heck, something complimentary of my personality. I think that society has forgotten that chivalry extends beyond opening doors and that being a true gentleman also means being chivalrous in thought and word.

dress: ASOS
hat: h&m similar
photos: Ro Photography

Anyway, that's the gist of my rant. Hopefully it had some passing semblance of sense. I'm just a petite fille who woke up at 3:30 in the morning with a head chuck full of thoughts wanting to be shared. A petite fille who likes to don purple wigs because she wishes she had short purple hair but lacks the gumption to actually do it, who likes to run in the mountains, eat ice cream, jam out to insanely loud music in the car, has funny fantasies about being a contestant on The Voice, mega fan of cheesy pop like The Backstreet Boys yet fan of insanely obscure indie artists like Wake Owl, has wrists the size of the average 7 year old (I googled and confirmed this;), dreamer who wishes she could buy a plane ticket for a trip around the world, lover of anything sci-fi/fantasy, concert go-er, and a gosh dang happy daughter of a Heavenly King. Anyway, that's that. I've run out steam and as it's now 5:15am I think I'll just go back to bed for a couple of more hours. :)

Much love!

Bananas

Tis Fall young lads, tis Fall! The leaves are yeller and the air is crisp! And now I'm done trying to type like an old English hobo! ;) You know what else is going on today? The Anberlin concert!!! AHHHHH!!! I'm SO excited! SO! Also, I think I need a vacation. I'm starting to get a little "freak-outy" and that's usually an indication that I need a nice break. A pause on life, if you will. Too bad life doesn't actually pause. Anyway, I'm also thinking it'd be a good idea if I could just magically plop down a cabin right smack in the middle of these mountains. That would be pretty great. Also, I know I've been boring as crap lately so my apologies. That's what happens when I'm a good blogger and I actually blog five days a week like I should, I run out of things to say. I know, I know, poopoo for me.

sweater: h&m
jeans: American Eagle
booties: F21
hat: h&m
purse: F21
photos: Roxana

You know what color I love this Fall? Yellow. I love yellow. Which, for me is huge because I NEVER used to wear yellow. NEVER. Mostly because I used to be yellower than a banana. No joke. Before I became a runner I used to be really pale. Not in the cute "pale-vampire" kind of way either but in the pale like a yellow crayon kind of way. So I never used to wear yellow. In fact, I thought that I COULDN'T wear yellow because of how yellow I was. Buuuuut then I spent loads of time in the sun, running, got super crazy tan, stopped looking so yellow, and I decided that what the heck, if I want to wear yellow than I can gosh dang wear yellow! So I did. Aaaand I love it. So that's that. Anyway, in the spirit of Fall, today's outfit was all about Fall staples: leather booties, wine colored hat, yellow over sized sweater, and faded black denim!

Much love!

Wedding China

Soooo...I have been a beyond poopy blogger lately. I mean, I'm sure you all noticed the tumble weeds rollin' by my space here last week. Whoops. My excuse? I have none. Heehee. ;) The good news is I'm back again this week and I have some super fun looks to share with you all! Seriously, I'm so excited to share them all with you. Also, wanna know how I spent my last week? Shamelessly listening to David Archuleta. On repeat. In my room, in the shower, at work, in the car. Pretty much everywhere. Oh and might I add I have been blasting "Crush" in the car on the way to work and have been belting it. Pretty sure all the passersby think I'm nuts. They're probably right. Man, listening to good ol' little David has been like a major throwback Thursday. MAJOR. Takes me back to the good old high school days. Which, speaking of throwbacks, like the good little nerd that I am I have also started re-reading the Harry Potter series. I don't know what made me want to do it but I sure am glad I'm doin' it. Actually I know exactly what made me want to do it. My sister was watching the movies last week, she likes falling asleep to them (don't ask me why, cuzzzzz, I have no idea) so hearing little snippets of them made me want to re-read the whole series. Also, I brought book 2 into work with me the other day, because it's been a little slow, and this total hottie patottie of a customer that I was helping was like, "Oh. My. Gosh. I LOVE Harry Potter!"...of course I immediately started picking out our wedding china in my head, because um, a HOT guy that LOVES Harry Potter? That's prime husband material right thurrr! 'Course he had to go and ruin it all by saying, "my girlfriend and me are on book 3 right now!" Wedding. China. shattered. ;)

sweatshirt: h&m
skirt: c/o Chic Wish
hat: JMR
belt: h&m
bracelets: F21
photos: Rachel Laukat Photography

It's been pretty rainy and gloomy these past couple of days here in Utah so I put together a warmer rainy day look. Of course it just so happened to be perfectly sunny when Rachel and I took these. ;) Anyway, I love that rainy summer days don't require too much bundling up. A simple sweatshirt does the trick and allows you to still wear more light weight pieces like this chiffon maxi skirt from Chic Wish. Which, you guys, this maxi skirt is DIvine! I know I'm always telling you all that Chic Wish is da best, but seriously, they are. I mean, it's soooooo floaty and dreamy! I've already worn it about a hundred times. Also, I love the look of monochromatic looks and this outfit was alllllll about different shades of cream. Well, stay tuned for some more Chic Wish looks I'll have for you all this week!

Much love!

Rebound

I'm totally and completely having "Being Human" withdrawals. I misssssss it. Boohoohoo. I need a rebound show. Stat. In fact, I've been on the hunt for one...with little success. A TV series ending is completely and one hundred percent like going through a break up. It's all you think about, you keep replaying the ending in your head over and over again, you miss it, wish it was still on, and are constantly looking for something to replace it. Yep. I completely just compared TV to a real life relationship. "Nerd, nerd, nerd." she says as she as kind of wants to delete the last few sentences. ;) Oh well. Give me palette cleanser rebound show suggestions guys! I'm testing out Heroes, I vaguely remember it being all the rage when I was in middle school, and Scandal right now. Neither one is sticking, but hey, maybe in a few episodes. I guess there's that saying, "never judge a show by it's first episode." Well, I'm done over sharing my couch potato TV addict tendencies.

Top: h&m
Pants: h&m
Hat: JMR similar
Sandals: F21 similar
Purse: h&m similar
Sunnies: F21 similar
PhotoCredit: ropastoriniphotography

I'm so in love with this hat you guys. So in love. It's THE perfect Spring/Summer accessory. Also, remember how I mentioned that I'm mildly obsessed with dual toned looks lately? Whelp, here's further proof. ;) I mean, what's more fun than mixing neutrals? Nothin' I tell ya. Especially since there was a time when I was convinced that brown and black didn't match. A pfft. A pfft. I was cray. Way cray. Black and brown are a combo made in heaven! I've also really been drawn to the simple looks lately too. Basic pieces like tees and skinny jeans with spunkier pieces like this wide brimmed fedora and metallic sandals, which, coincidentally, I've been wearing almost everyday. Seriously, these metallic sandals where like, the best birthday present ever! I am fully appreciating this warmer weather in them! :)

Much love!  

The Crickets, the crickets!

Top: gap similar

Boyfriend Jeans: Target

Hat: h&m similar

Oxfords: Bass similar

Purse: h&m 

Whelp, folks, it's my last post for the month of February. This month sure did fly by, and it was a poopy one at that. Don't get me wrong, I was all sorts of crazy happy this month (especially this week, kinda weird considering I'm riding the crimson tide this week and that usually causes the opposite effect) but in general it was just poop poop poopy. Sorry for over using that word. I know it's some people's "icky, I can't hear it without cringing" word so I'll control my use of it. Poopy. There, it's out of my system. Hopefully. Anyway, I figured since we've reached another end of the month I should probably do another update on my "Closet Challenge". As you'll all remember I totally killed it last month. I went 100% without shopping. This month, though? ...Cue the crickets...I went a little haywire. Well, maybe that's an exaggeration. Either way, though? I shopped. Anyway, if you remember my rules you'll also remember that I gave myself safety guidelines should I slip up. Click here to read the full post in which I declare my year long shopping hiatus. Following those rules I now need to place the exact amount of money I spent on shopping into my savings account, which has been slowing accumulating more dough, as I've also been placing a 1/4 of my monthly income into it as money I would've otherwise spent on shopping. Let's get to this then. This is what I bought this month:

H&M

t-strap pumps: $34.95

knit skirt: $29.95 

(I actually ended up returning this because although it was marked a small it fit more like a medium. I couldn't get a refund, however, because I didn't have the receipt so I got $32 in store credit.)

basic black loafers: $14.95 

(I bought these with some of the store credit I got from the skirt. I actually ended up only paying $4 for them because I had a $10 off coupon. SCORE!)

shoulder bag in brown: $9.95

(I actually bought this on sale for $6.95 on President's Day)

F21

floral bodysuit: $8.80

basic pink cardigan: $8.80

London t-shirt: $8.80

TOTAL SPENT: $97.95

Well, that's all the stuff I bought. The amount I spent is actually pretty shocking. I hadn't thought it would be quite that much, especially since I felt like I was snagging some pretty good deals, but things add up quickly. Whelp, that's that then. Now all that's left is to deposit $97.95 into my savings account and move on. Here's to a clean slate for March and a renewed commitment to NOT SHOP. 

Much love!